The Universe has stomped on me thread. Rant or clear the air

[Dr Frankenollie]

Thank you Duster (and I do like you as well as others).

However, I don't want to give the impression that I am constantly seething with hatred and frustration; I assure you, I can be content, and not everyone in the "real world", so to speak, is an empty idiot to me. But I'm not going to make posts about being reasonably cheerful, I make posts when I'm annoyed or angry. I can be frequently unhappy, yes, but the world is undeniably an unhappy place. Trying to make myself happy would be an attempt to delude myself, and render me incapable of ever improving society.

I'm not as morose and miserable-sounding in real life. I recognise that glum pessimists are not much fun to be around. Yet even when I attempt to be friendly to others, they simply fail to connect with me most of the time. It's not merely a matter of different interests, but a matter of different worldviews. Others do not enjoy arguing or philosophy as much as I do, and are disturbingly close-minded.

[Goliath]

Dr Frankenollie,

From reading your posts I can already tell you would absolutely love, love, love the hell out of this album



http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Time_Out_of_Mind

It won't cheer you up or give you consolation (Dylan is not selling that), but it just might give you some much needed recognition, and the feeling that you're not alone in your thoughts and views on life, the world and the people who inhibit it. Just a preview here; if you like it, I strongly suggest you getting hold of the album.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nuHl1oNoCEs[/youtube]

This text blew me away. <3

[DVDBuff1]

Oh no DVDBuff1 I'm sorry you got hit by a car! I'm glad you're okay. You really must be a superman!

Thanks, I'm actually feeling a lot better now!

[Disney Duster]

I'm glad to hear it DVDBuff.

Frankenollie, I'm sad to hear that's how you feel about life. I myself went through a period where I "hated the world" and now, because of a depression that hit me a little over a year ago, I began to hate even more...but I still somehow see that the world is not bad but good. I feel like it's all me, it's all something in me that is making me hate instead of see how the world really is. But at least you don't think it's totally devoid of good. I wish you could be happier. I wish you good luck. I have even prayed for you, when I remembered, at night, and I will continue to. All I can say is, try to be happy as best you can. And just like you may possibly find in Goliath's music, you will find more things and people that you like and are like you. You will be able to communicate. After all, you do communicate great here.

[thelittleursula]

AH hhhhhhhhhhh

I'm so glad that, that stupid Homestuck fandom is dieing out. Finally Tumblr can be free again.

* Starts to see a horde of Homestuck posts again *


RAHGARHGHAHGAHGAH

[bradhig]

I have fixated on subjects in the past and now being accused of talking about the same thing over and over again. I just looked it up on wikipedia and there is no cure.

[Disney Duster]

Talking about the same thing over and over can be a sign of Asperger's. It's not a bad thing. It's healthy to have things you like and to continue to enjoy them all the time. However, if you're able to realize you are talking about the same thing over and over to people who don't want to hear it, you can take control and try to stop. When you realize you're doing it just don't make that next post about what you keep talking about or just choose not to talk any more. You have the willpower to do it.

If you find you don't, you can look for a psychologist to help you.

[Elladorine]

I found out this evening that one of my friends lost his battle with cancer yesterday.

[disneyboy20022]

A few months ago back in April I was diagnosed with Diabetes. In August as many of you know my triglycerides were at 1200 and my blood sugar over a 3 months period was at about 400. Shortly after that I started insulin and now 3 months after that I had another blood test known as a hemoglobin A1C which shows my Triglycerides were down to 300 and my average blood sugar is now at 167

I haven't completely given up sugar, however I have been more careful of the portion side of it. However I have given up sugary drinks or any drink with sugar. I am eating a lot more fruit also. My primary doctor was very happy the blood test showed a great improvement of things. He also agreed in my particular case I don't have to give up sugar 100%, as long as it's not a lot and portion control and balance it.

On Thursday I see a new colitis doctor because the Physician's Assitant is now going to work on medical floors and not in clinics anymore. Here's to this hopefully being a great doctor because everyone knows my mind can't take another crappy GI Doctor (pun intended)

[ajmrowland]

Glad to hear you're doing better.

[blackcauldron85]

First off, *hug*, EW...I can't even imagine losing a friend to cancer- cancer runs in my family, but those I've known have beat it, so my thoughts are absolutely with you.

I've missed UD. The little bit of lurking I've been doing has been good, but I've missed it, I've missed the people, I've missed this thread.

I'm awake because my boyfriend is snoring and I couldn't fall back asleep...we had Chinese food on Saturday evening and my stomach hasn't been the same since, and I called work to let them know I wouldn't be in at 6am ("if you go to the doctor, bring a doctor's note..."...um, a) I don't have health insurance, and b) I don't go to the doctor for every stomachache I get... :/).

My life is so different from when I was active here (really 2006-2010). I was in grad school from Aug. 2011-Dec. 2012, and I failed a class (and an internship by extension)...the earliest I could've gone back was Aug. 2013, and I was working and hadn't decided (or looked much into) where to transfer my credits to. I've been working at a grocery store- the very reason I went to college for undergrad was to not have to work at a grocery store anymore. I'm grateful for my job, and it could be worse, but I'm not at all where I want to be in life. I graduated in 2008 and have had hardly any luck with the job hunting thing; I had a job back in Florida (a low-paying one), that was tolerable until the new management put me in the grocery store part (I was running the thrift store). That was a few months before my divorce was finalized, and then a few months later I got accepted into grad school, and things were okay until I failed. I still haven't gotten over that, and someday I really should go back, seeing as how I have a semester + 1 class + 1 internship left and it'd be a waste to never finish. I've always been a good student (except for math classes), and I'm still not over having failed. I failed a critical thinking class...the conspiracy theorist in me thinks that there's a quota and that at least one person from every cohort won't pass.

It's hard having the time and effort to job hunt, mostly because I have barely had any luck with it...rejection for years absolutely sucks.

I was living with a roommate while in school and a few months afterwards, but then my boyfriend asked me to move in with him. It wasn't a financial decision at all (I don't pay him rent, he never wanted rent $), but I was struggling paying the $275 rent + bills with my old roommate. So I've been living with him since April, and lately things have been okay, but we fight a lot, and 3, maybe 4 weeks ago now, I was intent on moving out, since there was one too many fights, and my most important things were packed, I had a hotel booked that night, and I was heading out to get a storage unit, with my dog with me in the car, and as I started leaving the apartment complex (where my boyfriend also works- I huffed and puffed for 2 hours or so trying to pack and pack my car without him knowing), I realized I forgot my birth certificate and social security card, so I headed back, and then he came home, knowing what I was doing. I wouldn't listen to him, and I said that if I come back to get my other things, that I'd bring a police escort...he texted me later asking if we could talk at a coffee shop, and I ended up sleeping on the spare couch for a couple nights. He's invested in the relationship and has been trying to make things work, and I applaud that. It's just been a lot to take lately.

I don't make much money, and to make matters worse, a week's paycheck every month goes towards credit card debt (I haven't even touched my student loan debt yet), and I really can't afford to live on my own. Things with him have been better, so there's no need right now to think about moving out, but just knowing that I can't move out because I can't afford it makes me feel like a failed adult. I've pawned things (Disney collectibles and such), sold things (Disney movies, Disney books, other movies, etc.)...around the time my divorce was finalized (Feb. 2011), my dog had surgery, and he's had surgery since, and that + living expenses = credit card debt.

In July I think it was (earlier this year I was working 3 part time jobs, which didn't last long due to scheduling issues, then I was down to 2, and when I transferred grocery store locations, I got more hours as a cashier, so I quit waitressing, and then I got my full-time position), my dad told me that he regretted sending my brother & I to college (he's a cashier at a retail store). That still hurts me. I've tried to make a decent life for myself, and nothing ever seems to work for me.

I don't have as much time for Disney anymore, but I still at least try to take one day a week and look up the news on my favorite websites. Last night my boyfriend actually didn't mind me working on my project (I've been working on & off for YEARS on a Disney website/blog, chronicling the production of films)...in the past, even though he's constantly on his cell phone (he once said that my laptop is big and creates space between us...), he has complained of me using my computer. And I learned from my marriage and constantly being on the computer doing "Disney stuff" that that's not always the best way to be in a relationship...but last night he didn't mind... I feel more...powerful? Confident? Stronger...since a month ago, like I have control. Like he knows that I will leave. His hobby is working on cars, mine is Disney, and it's nice to get back into it.

I called out sick from work, and I really don't feel well, I haven't for most of the weekend, and I need to job hunt. Like I posted at the beginning, my manager mentioned bringing in a doctor's note if I go to the doctor. Who goes to the doctor for food poisoning? Everyone at work, managers included, know that I'm not happy (after the 2nd week in this position, I figured I wasn't going to put on a happy face when asked how I like it...after a couple months and managers asking me, I was being honest...)...all that to say, I'm sure that some people at work will think I'm taking a day off to job hunt...which is partly true, but if I felt well, I'd go into work. One of our wine vendors has told me twice to "fake sick" and call out to have a day to job hunt.

This job is basically ripping down old price tags and putting new ones up, so much so that my left hand often hurts. I also make price tags and signs. I'm capable of so much more in life and I get so down about this being the best I can find. I used to volunteer and that's how I got my job 2 years out of college (that and being friends with someone there). I don't have the money for gas anymore to volunteer. I just feel so lost. Maybe carving out some more time for UD will bring a little more happiness into my life.

I also have some health stuff going on...tmi, but I've had a lump for a little while now, and cancer runs in my family. I have a (free) ultrasound next week, so that's just one more thing to add to my brain and my stress.

(*edit*) Not to make this even longer, but just having visited the Theme Parks section of UD, in Sepetember, my boyfriend and I went to WDW (he wanted a vacation from work, it was his idea), and we ended up fighting, of course. Parts were fun, but the Halloween party was absolutely ruined for me, and I was crying so didn't want to meet Tiana & Naveen, 2 of my absolute favorites, who I had never met before. :/ Just a side-story.

I bet this is super-long, but yay for venting!

[Disney Duster]

Aw, I'm sorry Amy. Wow, so much happened to you! Your boyfriend shouldn't get mad at you for doing what you love if it doesn't interfere with your time together and he has his cars hobby that takes time, too. Maybe you do have to go to a doctor to appease the people at work, but someday you will get enough money to pay off everything, especially if you use your time off to find a better job. But I hope you finish your degree from college and can get a higher paying job where you can do so much more that you know you can do and your hand won't hurt either! I'm real sorry your Disney trip got ruined when it should've been a big happy time in your life, but there will be new, better times at Disney later! So, here's wishing and hoping for things to get better for you!

[blackcauldron85]

DD!!!! I have missed you!!!!! There will be better times at WDW, I'm sure. Thank you so much!!!

[Disney Duster]

I missed you too! Glad to see you here as much as you can be.

[bradhig]

my account was suspended at the voltron forums cause of bashing wep ,bash wep products, unnecessary posts

I wanna talk about Voltron so bad but there are no other forums anywhere and I am crying right now.

[disneyboy20022]

Some people in this thread expressed the saddening of losing a pet. Now I must do the same.

The cat in the link below is named Alley Cat. She was my family's first cat. While I'm very sad to see her go, I know that she has had a very very long and great life. She was 18 years old and we found her in an ally in the back yard hence the name. I have many many great memories with her that will never leave me. I was 8 years old when we got her and currently I'm 26 years old and will be 27 in March. I've pretty much known her for 2/3 of my life and it's gonna tough for me and my family for sure. Please keep my family in your prayers as we've had a cat or two die before in the past, this one is probably going to be the toughest ever for us.

I remember one time, my sister took her to a local 4-H thing to be judged. My sister get's back and my dad asked her how it went. She said that Alley hissed at the judge and also bit them. However the judge was impartial and received a blue ribbon

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[Disney's Divinity]

My thoughts are with your family. Even as young as I am, my family has had so many pets (particularly cats--thanks to parents who are too cheap to get them fixed...) and it's always been difficult for me to deal with animal deaths.

[disneyboy20022]

My thoughts are with your family. Even as young as I am, my family has had so many pets (particularly cats--thanks to parents who are too cheap to get them fixed...) and it's always been difficult for me to deal with animal deaths.

Strangely enough I'm not crying about this as much as I thought I would. Perhaps it's given that 18 years for a cat is an extremely long life. I always knew this day would come but yet I didn't at the same time. My dad is having the biggest things with it. Over the past few years, she came to be his cat.

[Super Aurora]

That kinda talk got me banned off the voltron forum and another disney forum. I am not obsessed Aspergers syndrone causes me to act like that. You don't know what it's like to be a refugee on the internet searching for a place to talk disney ,voltron ,etc after getting thrown out of one place after another.

Stop using your disability as an excuse for your immature whining. I have hearing disability and never use it as an excuse for something trivial. There are people with Aspergers who actually act mature and don't whine and complain over the same thing over and over and over again.

You most likely got banned from those site mainly because you were being a constant pest by whining about same useless trivial over and over and over again to point that other members had enough of it and already got the idea already.

I'll just weigh in that one is entitled to their opinions. If bradhig doesn't like the peasant dress, that's his choice. Now let's all cool our heads and move on.

It's one thing to state an opinion. It's another to act like an immature man-child over it. He could of said this:
"I'm not too fond of Aurora's peasant outfit. just doesn't click with me. I prefer she she was represented in her blue gown as it's more iconic."

That would of been the mature way to handle it rather than "WAAAHHH Muh blue dress isn't in it!!?!1/1/". He was like this in more tan just this thread.

That's all I have to say.



Moderator's note: This post has been edited to remove offensive language.

[bradhig]

I see people talk like that even here. I am not whinning. I am crying over this. It's okay for people to say stuff like NOOOO but not me.