Bring forth the babble!

[Mason_Ireton]

My plate is so full, gon'na be 2.0 (20)

[PeterPanfan]

Wow. One more year and you'll be legal.

[Isidour]

"At last in home!"

Yes, I say at last because today has been a day just to forget...one of those you should just erase of your memory. One of those frustrating days in which it doesn't matter what you do, everything will be just against you, or end worse that you could expect.

***If you decide not to fail your class because an exam, half of the class wont come and even the damn test won't be even mentioned
***Forget your hope of having a quiet routine on the gym...this day is specially made so all the newbies decide to get a new routine...yours...and because they are so weak they need patience, or more like a personal gym
***Decided to take an early bath, think again because you'll be commanded exactly after you got out, to give a bath to the dog(and of course, taking another bath)
***A sister who just had a surgery doesn't mean "15 free-afternoons"; it mean "15 afternoon of going to a place you really hate"
***A chat that started with a "I have been thinking on breaking up" and ends after everything is cleared out, not always mean that sending some pictures(as we did in the past) will be entirely appreciated...
***That an "5 minutes bus trip" can become on a "half an hour" one
***When you lend your car to a familiar it doesn't really mean that your radio won't be messed up...neither that your discs are safe
***Or the mirrors
***When you finally get home...some stranger parked his car on your spot
***You wish to hear her voice again...to kiss her...and yet you can't because is with her granny
***That you realize you're more the messenger of your mom and sister...or the one who will do all the "2-do list"
***That while I write this...my dog just ate my smashed potatoes...

Today...was one of those days...where you just wish a hug from your beloved one, not a kiss or some words, just a damn hug!...and yet...she's so far away

One of those days you wish to forget because of all the decisions you made were wrong
One of those days

[Prudence]

While working at my first real job, at the age of six years, I came across a man whose money was being stolen by a vending machine. He looked at the edible contents of the machine, looked at me, and looked back at his denied desserts. "In this world, most people fall into four categories," he said. "There are those like my wasted money, those simple folks like me, those like this machine, and those like the treats we can't have."
I nodded.
"A Prudence," he continued, "Is in a category of her own."
"The useless kid who watches you?"
"No. A category that hasn't been defined yet."

[blackcauldron85]

I just wanted to say that I have been reading this thread, but I just haven't posted anything. I'm kind of bummed and haven't always felt like posting my thoughts lately. I need a job. I'm frustrated. I also have a major sunburn on my legs and it hurts to walk and I kind of limp. I went to the doctor (finally) today, and he gave me medicine.

I've been done with school for a couple of weeks now, and I've only gotten rejection. I'm kind of fine with this, since I'm not sure exactly I want to do. I don't even know if I went to school for the right thing. I don't want a job that I'm going to hate- we don't need money immediately, thanks to Bobby's job. I do enjoy being at home with the dogs all day, I do, but I know that eventually I'll have to get a job.

I don't know what my strengths and weaknesses are. I don't know exactly what kind of job I want or don't want. Ideally something in the entertainment industry, behind the scenes. I'd do writing, as long as it has to do with the entertainment industry in some capacity. I kind of wish that I had majored in film instead of just minoring in it- I had thought of majoring in it, but I figured a) my parents won't pay for me to get a degree in film (I'm not sure if they would have) and b) I won't be able to get a job in film.

I need an entry level job, darn it!!! I don't want to work retail, I don't want to work in sales. It's so hard finding jobs- most jobs say that you need experience, but you can't get experience without people hiring you! The internship I did only lasted a few months, and then the company folded. I got my school credit, and to get school credit I only had to be there for a few months, but I was planning on staying longer.

UGH! I've been on the verge of tears yesterday and today- there just are not jobs that I can see online that I want or that I'm eligible for. I think that I've applied to and have been rejected from every job that I may possibly want. But, the thing is, the vast majority of the jobs that I had applied to aren't in a field that I'd want to do- I'm kind of desperate, but I'm really not.

I wish UD could hire me...that's something that I'm passionate about. That's something that I'm going to need in a job- passion. I'm going to have to love what I do and believe in it, or else I probably will be miserable.



If any of you live in the Orlando area or know anyone here who needs an employee, I need a job. And I'm frustrated beyond belief.

Or if anyone knows any job wesbites besides CareerBuilder or Monster or Craigslist, please let me know... *sigh*

If any of you read this, thanks...I'm just letting off steam at this point...

[PeterPanfan]

Aww, Amy.

I really and sincerely hope you find a job you enjoy and love.

[blackcauldron85]

Thanks, Dan- it makes me happy that you care.

[Mason_Ireton]

*hugs Amy* You'll be fine Amy, I'm in the same boat on the school too, suppose to hear from Disney round this week.

In lighter news, My b-day is almost here *eek* can't wait, my best friend/family will show up and I got my niece/sister visiting too. along with the college acceptence letter.


update: I got my acceptence letter, I'm goin to college *whoo hoo* I'm so so so so stoked

[Prudence]

"I'm the biggest thing that ever came from my hometown!
I'll be damned if I'm going to let them down!
If it's the last thing I do before they lay me in the ground,
You know I'm going to make Pocahontas proud."

(The singer's hometown is called Pocahontas. She wasn't singing about the Powhaton princess. Anyway, seeing words that rhyme like that don't do the song justice. Personally, I like this song because I can relate to it in a number of respects. I like a great deal of country music in general for that reason, despite being from the Northwest of the United States.)

[Isidour]

Nice song Prue

I wish I lived on Orlando Amy, so I could hire you at least I can give you a virtual hug ({)

[blackcauldron85]

Aww, thanks Mason & Isidour- virtual hugs are nice!
I wish you could hire me, too, Isidour- I really do!

[Mason_Ireton]

You're welcome Amy, glad you appericate the hugs *chuckles*

The weather is so refreshin and warm, loads of warmness and sun *smiles* alil too hot here/there but it's worth it *chuckles* I'm so nervous bout this college thing, not sure if I'm gon'na survive the college world.

[blackcauldron85]

I'm so nervous bout this college thing, not sure if I'm gon'na survive the college world.

Well, going on to a 4-year school from a 2-year community college isn't that big of a deal- sure, the 4-year school is bigger, and you take a lot of classes pertaining to your major, but there's no real difference between the 2 types of school, at least if you're not living on campus. You've done half the work already- what's another 2 years? Do you know what your major will be?

I'm sure you'll do great!

[Mason_Ireton]

I'm a custodial for Disney, so I'll be takin a class based on that subject, always been curious bout custodials anyways. Cause we always see 'em round the park right? *sees people agreeing*

[Jasmine1022]

Sorry to get off topic but I just wanted to vent a little.

I'm not sure who knows it. I know Mason knows because I've talked to him since (but not in a little while, and I'm sorry) but Jeremy and I broke up. Actually, it was one month ago today. How cute. Anyway, ever since that break up, I've been bad. I've started doing things I really shouldn't be doing with people I shouldn't be around. This came to light yesterday when I was with my "friend" Tim and we were walking along these railroad tracks which were above a lake and I fell, getting my leg caught in the tracks. There were no trains or anything but it was still embarassing and my knee has been killing me. I hope I didn't really hurt it, it's terribly hard to walk on...

I met some guy online maybe like 3 weeks ago or so. I finally met him today and I blew it. I don't know if it's because I don't want a relationship or because I don't like him. He's so bad for me but yet I'm kind of drawn to him. I don't know if I should get into a relationship or wait for Jeremy or...I don't know. I'm a mess. I need to go to bed because my knee is killing me and my foot hurts (after deciding to pee in the woods, I am pretty sure I got some kind of splinter or something in the bottom of my foot and I'm too afraid to have anyone look at it. I just hope it goes away).

[blackcauldron85]

Oh, Megan. I'm glad you're back, but I'm sorry to hear all that.

Just be safe, and don't do anything stupid- don't do anything bad just because you think it'll drown out your sadness- I've been there and done that, and it just makes you regretful later on down the road.

Are you still friends with Jeremy? You mentioned possibly waiting for him...you shouldn't put your life on hold for that- if it happens, it'll happen, but you need to move on with your life. Sometimes moving on is the best thing to do (I usually had a week between relationships, which probably wasn't always smart), but don't date guys who you ordinarily wouldn't date just to move on (I've been there, too).

I care about you, and I don't want you to hurt yourself more than you have (both physically & mentally). Please just rest your knee and I guess just keep a watch on your foot. And get some ice cream and some movies and some girl friends. It will take your mind off of things for a little while.

[Jasmine1022]

Actually, today, I was alone in my house and I decided to go through my memory box and I read all his letters to me. I decided to call and say that I was sorry and his mother called me back. We talked (her and I) and she said that maybe she'll let him talk to me. No, I'm not really friends with him at this point (we haven't spoken in months due to his mother) so I'm at least a bit closer...A friend of mine said that even if I get to be friends with Jeremy again, I should never tell him that I'm in love with him again...it would just screw things up. I think his life is better without me...

and I feel so crappy about that.

[Isidour]

Well...it really depends

You may always tell him your feelings if you see that the time is right and if you think that he shares the feeling too.
The important thing here is that at least you're a bit closer now

A big hug and my best wishes

N'abandonnez jamais, ne rendez jamais

[rs_milo_whatever]

Today they handed out yearbooks in my school...wow, I can't believe my senior year is over, and I won't be seeing all these people I love so much as often. I got so many signatures that were so bittersweet and pretty much made me cry. Senior year really was the best, high school itself made my personality; my graduations (we get three at my school) will be this weekend and I came back from my senior trip in Los Angeles a week ago... I build so many memories, i don't wanna leave. Back in Los Angeles in our ride back from Laguna Beach we were all so happy and laughing and suddenly an awkward slience came, and I said "I can't believe we won't be seeing each other anymore"...everyone started crying and taking so many pictures, and then we started remembering all this stuff all the way from 1st grade up and we realized we had been through so many things together...it's hard to go

[Mason_Ireton]

First off welcome back Jasmine, we really missed you being here *hugs Meg* I was gettin kinda lonely without you.

Really sorry bout the "Jermney era", wish there was a way I can help.....You know I"m always gon'na be there for you sis *looks deep in her eyes* You are much better then you'll know, Meg you're quite creative, trust me, You have some very acknowledgeable qualities, always speakin your mind when needed and you provide a good friendship. Don't take drastic measures ok? I really enjoy you being round my life and I greatly appericate every moment with you.