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Yes, as you've read.

Why? This is my situation. I completly dislike; HATE my college. It's the most expensive one of the country but it sure doesn't show. The building is painted in a gray/navy blue color, there aren't flowers anywhere, people don't go there to make friends (they just go, take the classes and leave, so there's not a nice friendly atmosphere on it), most of the equipment is extremely old and useless... I even have a classroom with AC that gets flooded when it rains (as well as many others).

On top of that, I've taken the worst classes ever in a semester. Appreciation of Art is not just pointless but the class is very, very boring; Investigation Methods in the Media: I had to drop it because I couldn't understand it and the Prof. didn't help at all; History of Puerto Rico: we talk about EVERYTHING but PR; and Intro to Radio and Telecommunications: this one I do like but sadly for me is not important for my major.

.. So, how can you put effort into something you just dislike and there's not a single incentive of doing anything? I just feel like I'm wasting my time.

Plus, I don't have any friends. The few I make just can't come visit me because they think driving 1 hour from their place to my city is like going to the end of the world.

I'll be leaving the country in Jan.; which I need DESPERATELY but until then what do I do?

And you know what is even worse? Having so much free time, as I do (since I study 2 days a week and I can't have a part time job at the moment because of the studies) gives me time to make me feel worse and get my head filled with horrible thougths.

I asked once a doctor about this and told me to get help, since there are no reasons at all for me to feel this way, and even I know that but I can't help it even if I try.

I just know I need to leave ASAP. And although you might say: "Jan. is just around the corner"; I've been feeling this way for months, and as soon as the classes are over, I'll have a month or more with nothing to do until I leave, and this is something I just don't want to have (even though I'll hopefully find a part time job then).

What I'm asking in this post is not for pitty or to tell me, "look for help". I just want to know practical ways in which I can survive this awful moment in my life until I leave.

PS

I think I'm even much more worried now than before, since before I at least acted depressed (sad, bad humor), now you can't tell from the outside.

I also forgot to mention that I discovered that my best friend was my worst enemy.

I'm sorry to hear that. I, too, have had depression in my life. I think many of us have.

In fact, just recently, I quit smoking. I haven't smoked a cigarette in over two weeks. It was something that I did, because I felt I needed something (plus it is addicting). At any rate, now that I am not smoking, I find myself having much more time, and I feel depressed (plus I am having withdrawls). At any rate, I just fill my time doing several different things. Listening to music, watching movies, talking with friends (you can always call on the phone), etc. Sometimes I even do multiple things, like listen to music, chat on the internet, and surf different websites, reading and keeping up with things that interest me.

Of course, there's always jogging, walking, running, etc. Activity is always good. Make sure to get plenty of sleep, but don't OVER sleep. Try to keep a positive attitude, even if you don't feel like it, and you'll attract more positive. Find something that you look forward too (such as a movie coming out on DVD, or a new CD), getting to visit with friends, going out to dinner, etc. Having something to look forward, however small it may seem, is always a big help.

Also, do not be afraid to let people know that you need to get out, and have some fun. Often times, you'll find that someone else is in need of having fun, as well.

I hope this helps, and I hope you will overcome your depression!

Sorry to hear your having a miserable time.

Evil Genie Jafar wrote: I just want to know practical ways in which I can survive this awful moment in my life until I leave.

Well we had a thread similar to this not to long ago right here!

We talked about what you do when things go wrong, and it seems that since I remember you saying you had almost all of the animated classics on DVD, you can watch some of them, a several other of your DVDS. Well you do have a "few" friends you say so maybe you can have a mini going away party on December or something.

Hope this helps!

BTW which country are you going to?

Thanks:

Here are other facts:

-Sadly I can't spend money on movies and stuff (even though I do, I shouldn't) because precisely I need to save for my trip. And besides, I already have quite a few debts.

- I can't make that much phone calls either since we don't have a phone in our house; just my cel phone... and I already got a high bill for it

- The same thing goes for the gas. I can't just go and visit my "friends". And I'm fair enough, I don't ask them to come ALWAYS, but once in a while. The only "friend" I made in college for example, I have asked to come over and watch some movies and she can't because she has always things to do... so I'm not going to bother anymore. I've heard those "excuses" before.

- I don't get that much sleep. In fact, it's going to be 3:00 am (have classes today) and I'm still awake. And sometimes I just wish that is so because I'm having terrible nightmares recently.

- I feel so sensible right now, that even the subtle of things affects me inside. I just can't get close to dramatic movies even. Not even commercials for them, and sadly those are the only things they show on TV.


PS

I accept donations though, if I could get the last 2 seasons of Xena I'd could kill quite an amount of time for several weeks at least.

I'm going back to Spain (I think I've said it before). I already lived there for a semester and now I'm going to do the same. I have LOTS of friends there and LOVE the country. I'm actually looking forward to move there

*sigh*

Lo siento, amigo. Methinks you're suffering from a critical case of ennui. ;-p

One thing I wanna ask. Do you feel restless? As in, do you feel eager and anxious to do something? Alternatively, do you feel completely demotivated and lack any interest in doing, well... anything? I have a pretty good feeling that you're bored in the restless sense... but feel free to correct me!

Methods of passing the time all depend on your resources and your personality, really. I mean, what do you enjoy most? Socializing? If so, then your isolation puts you at somewhat of a disadvantage - since your friends and acquaintances are so far away. College doesn't sound like much fun, either. I can kinda relate with you there - I commute to campus, and the college I go to is huge - about 50,000 students or so. There, you're just another face in the crowd, lost in the fray. I feel like a cow among the herd, or some other livestock thereof. Most of the people in my peer group are idiots anyway, and I wouldn't care to make friends with them. Heh...
If you are more introverted - that is, if you enjoy time to yourself more than being with other people - then media usually is a good outlet. Books, music, DVDs, games, the internet - although from what I've seen from you on the forum before, you've been doing all these things. And now I'm guessing you're starting to get sick of them.

The best advice I can give is try to make the best use of the circumstances you're under. If you're trapped in the house, try to keep your mind occupied - start a new hobby, read... hell, rearrange your room if you must! Just don't spend too much time thinking about how miserable you are and how long off January is - because believe me, thinking about it will just make the time pass more slowly!
If you can get out of the house, do so at any opportunity. You don't necessarily have to drive anywhere - just doing something as simple as as walk to blow off some stress and nervous energy usually helps me... especially when I'm listening to my portable CD player. And since your friends live such a distance away, try planning a time to hang out in advance, so they can make the time to drive out. Or meet them somewhere public to just putz around together!

Murr. I hope these suggestions helped somewhat... sorry I can't empathize with your situation! I guess I cope with dead time better than most people... O_o

P.S. - I know what you mean about the insomniac "night-owl" thing - ironically, the more stressed I am, the longer I tend to stay up at night. Just when I need sleep the most!

I'm really sorry about what's going on. It does sound pretty grim, and I can sympathise a bit. I live quite away from most of my chums, so I don't really see them that much outside of school, so I often end up biding time alone. A good way of biding time would be excercise which you can do alone; running, swimming and cycling are especially good. Another is just being creative. Make a short film with a video camera. Paint and draw. Write scripts and stories. DVDs are also quite good for biding time, especially short cartoon and TV shows, which one can watch in doses. I often pop in a Simpsons DVD or a Walt Disney Treasure and within minutes, I'm not bored anymore.

And the yucky classes...I also sympathise with you there as I did a stupid course last year called Philsophy and Ethics. I can't exactly help you with this one, but what I did with that subject was just kept at it and said to myself "keep at it as it's gonna end soon".

As for the long period of nothingness before you leave the country, why don't you try and do not just the above but charity work as well? That, in my opinion, is not only time killing, but also rather rewarding.

I hope that my advice helps a bit and I hope that your life gets better soon.

Thanks, you all.


One important point: Don't put that much attention to me. By this I mean, help me out but don't think too much of it since I don't want you to feel bad.


Ok, Paka and Wonderlicious thanks for the suggestions. And I don't want to look like I don't appreciate your help but there are certain facts you should know.

But, one step at a time.

1. Yes I feel the need to do something. To GET OUT OF HERE ASAP!!!

2. And yes, I do feel demotivated as to do anything. As I said, I have to drive 1 hour (a little bit more) to get to my college, not just drive there but having to live through the stress of the traffic. I could do that if there was "something" that I look forward to in college but as you see, that's not the case. The same goes for my classes, how come I should feel like studying, doing homework and stuff if I just don't care for the classes? (And I know that we all have classes that we don't like. But come on, usually there's just 1 or maybe 2.... but ALL of them?) On top of that, my first class is at 12:30 and I have to wait till 5:30pm to actually be in the class I care for.

3. I am a very extroverted person. In fact, one of the things I like the most is to act. Sadly, there are no theater groups anywhere around that I could join.

4. I wish I could just walk through town and do stuff, even the simplest ones. But sadly, even though I live in a city there's NOTHING to do here. No parks, no theaters (for plays, I mean), no clubs, not even nice bars. To put it simply. Life here ends at 9:00pm (thanks to the stores, but earlier than that for anything else). The only place to go is 1 Chilli's and the people that hang around there are in their 30's or more.

5. Believe me, asking people in advance doesn't do anything. It just helps to make me feel that more upset when the say: "Sorry, I forgot" or "something showed up". To give you an example, this last week I called that friend on Thursday night and told her: "call me to make arrangements for the weekend" ; and weekend for us starts on Friday.... she never called. And since then and before I've asked her and she's : "Let's see..., I'll call you"

To be honest I have a couple of other friends but here's the deal. I can never see them because they're either studying or working till 11:00pm. And I can't just go there and spend time with them when there's a chance as I used to because this friend happens to be the brother of my "worst enemy" and although he doesn't live there and used to not go, now he does. In fact, one time that I had to do a homework at his house, he asked him not to come over because I was going to be there... and that was the first thing he did.

5. Once I told my family of my depression, and you want to know the reaction? They yelled at me because I had "no reason" to feel this way.

6. Plus there are other things that make me this way too. Like how all my my cousins (my whole family) are married, they all have kids. And the ones that didn't got pregnant at the same time. And that leaves just me: "to find my way in life". Is like some pressure my family has put on me, even if they don't want to, I do feel that way. And of course I don't want to have a family anytime soon. But being stucked in here, this way makes things worse.... that's why I want to leave.

PS

The only thing that could help me get back on track is to get back to the gym. Which I will in the next week. And to be able to find a that part time job the month before I leave

I also got a recomendation from a friend as to help me clear my head but I can't tell because there's Alan around.

if you wanna talk to someone you always have your friends from ud to talk to

you can post here or im us whenever you want well always listen

That is true EGJ...we UD people read!

BTW, YGM.
(by the way, you got mail. )

Thanks.

It does help to read your comments.

PS

Krystal, you also have mail.

I'm sorry to her that you're depressed, Evil Genie Jafar. In a way, I can kinda relate to what your going though. I don't have very many friends at school. No, let's be honest. I don't have very many friends period. I try to make more friends there but it seems so far no one is really intrested in what I say. Not only do I fit in at school. I don't fit in Berekeley(the city where I live). Don't get me wrong. It's a nice city and it has a wonderful culture but I just don't feel like I belong in Berkeley. I'm planning to move to L.A when I graduate high school(And I haven't even begung high school yet.)

It sounds like you have a lot of free time. If I were you, I would focus on something that I like doing. For example, I like writing so I write fanfics. Also, listening to music might help to. It actaully only makes you happy for only a little bit but hey, It's better than never being happy.

Hopes This Helps

TashieGirl wrote:I don't have very many friends at school. No, let's be honest. I don't have very many friends period.

I do see a common theme in a lot of the UD members here. A lot of people here, like me, aren't too popular, and I can really relate to you tashiegirl and evil genie jafar beacuse I don't have too many friends period also (Mostly because I'm "boring".). Another thing that is getting my quasi depressed is school work. Sophomore year is so tough, and I'm really nervous about getting any bad grades, because the honors and AP course are killing me. I don't go to sleep until like 12 or 1, and teenagers need 10 hours of sleep through studies

To me, having a lot of free time would be a blessing seeing I have very little free time right now. What I do in my free time is play piano or violin or listen to music or surf the web, whatever makes me happy

Well i'm probably more depressed than you but i don't show it. At least you dont have people actively hating you, demonizing you, trying to ruin your life and happiness (and succeding) and people that tell you they love you then thrown their phones at you while being nice to others. Hope your life turns out ok

You have alot of time on your hands. You view it as a negative, but turn it into something positive.

for example, Have any hobbies that have really interested, but you never had the time? Go completely into hobbies, Outdoor hobbies, exercise, join a club, or maybe learn martial arts.

deathie mouse wrote:Well i'm probably more depressed than you but i don't show it. At least you dont have people actively hating you, demonizing you, trying to ruin your life and happiness (and succeding) and people that tell you they love you then thrown their phones at you while being nice to others. Hope your life turns out ok

I know, and I'm sorry.

In my case, I don't have real issues that's for sure. But some people get over their problems better than others. And I'm one of those few that can easily get controlled by his mind.

... plus, the real things.